Bored, Sleepy

Bored, sleepy, mixed feelings, cold, waiting and waiting.....

Camping (23 - 24 Dec 2006)

What are we up to last weekend? Feast your eyes with the pictures below. This piece of little paradise is owned by Uncle & Aunty. There are fruit trees, herb trees, fishing pond, cool surroundings, beautiful sceneries... perfect for a short holiday away from the madness of the city. You don't have to travel far for this camping experience. In fact it's only less than 10 minutes away from my house. Join us next time!


1st DAY

Me in front of our "camp base"




Ade gaya tak??




Romeo mane ni, siap posing kat tepi tasik ni??




Mata pandang ke mane tu?




Mandi sungai.....sejuk tak dik?




Kiut kan budak ni?




Chalet by the lake




Uncle, building a jetty to cross-over to the chalet




Memasak ala kampung. Berasap2 you!




Aunty rajin memasak. Masak ape tu aunty?




Pasang betul-betul khemah tu. Nanti ditiup angin. Hehe!




Dah siap pun. Tersengih aje, nampak gigi, nak wat iklan colgate ye?




Kat atas bukit ni, macam2 ade. Salah satu penghuni di sini.




Ikan haruan pun ade.




Our delicious dinner. Yum, yum. Thank you aunty!




Katak dalam plastik




FIRE!!! Unggun api kat tengah hutan. This is what I call campfire.




Eh! Ape ni? Leh makan ke?




Rupa-rupanya ade tukang masak diimport khas dari Setapak. Hehe!




Sedapnya bau. Bila cekodok ni nak siap?




Mai mai, come one come all, mai cuba my cekodok. Penat I buat tau!



2nd DAY

Early next morning, aunty dah bangun wat teh




Main buaian di dalam camp.




No need to explain kan? Tau2 je ape tempat ni. Kepuasan terjamin. Hehe!




Breakfast in the jungle. Sedap tak terkata. TQ again aunty & uncle!




Tarzan pun ade kat sini




Window view, taken from inside the chalet




Denai menaiki bukit. Kelihatan uncle rajin bekerja.




Mamat ni pun rajin kerja.




Aunty turut membantu.




Habis semak dipotongnya.




Pokok di pagi hari.




Betapa indahnya suria mandikan cahaya




Bersinar riak air di desa




Don't wanna be left out in this gotong-royong.




Penghisap darah.....PACAT!!!




The chalet in the morning.




Tangga ala cowboy




Ole2 utk dibawa pulang. Terkena pacat la tu.




Uncle menyiang ikan haruan utk lunch.




Masih hidup ikan ni.




Nangka oh nangka.




1st dish: Ikan haruan




2nd dish: Sayur




3rd dish: Ikan haruan 2




4th dish: Gulai nangka




All 4 together. Our lunch.




Lepas lunch, kita ade pertandingan tarik tali. Tengok tu, kuatnya mereka tarik.




Tarik! Tarik!




La, bukan pertandingan tarik tali la. Mereka sdg tarik sampah dari tasik. Uncle cuba potong tumbuhan ni supaya senang ditarik.




Dua org lagi masuk ke dlm air utk menolong.




Semakin ramai org dtg menolong.




Akhirnya, berjaya!




Sempat lagi berposing, on the way downhill.




Aksi pengembara! Bye!!!

Rainbow at the end of a storm

How this amazing being hit me. Higher education? Probably not. The selok-belok of life? Definitely a yes. Was hit by a "storm" in the living room this afternon and all it takes this being to quiet the "storm" was to use the like of "rainbow at the end of a storm". A simple fact that makes me smile and get on with life again.

Doesn't make much sense a gal like me who's too lazy to do housework, too lazy to cook, etc cross path with this person who calls himself "keling" and I myself have started calling him that.

How would we know the rainbow is beautiful if we didn't go through the storm first? Take it as a blessing to experience the horror of storms first in order to be able to appreciate the beauty of the rainbow.

The storm might hit again. Most probably it will. Only this time, I'll be more aware and know that there's something beautiful at the end. When? Don't know. Just be cool and wait. And, everyone who is human WILL experience this. I'm not alone.

This brings to the fact that perhaps my mind is too tensed and my sense of urgency is getting to a higher degree than before. With all the "storms" I've collected through my 32 years, these "urgency cells" are spreading like malignancy cells. I'm scared. I'm worried.

I should tell myself all things happened for a reason. I should be concentrating on relaxation and perform the "now factor". Do things at the moment for that moment and shouldn't be doing things for the past or for the future. I should empty my mind and not burden my mind. I should love myself more.....

4 days ago (7 Oct, Saturday)

Rewind blk sket. Pertemuan kedua ..... Klas abis awal ari tu. Maklumlah, semester baru, lecturer baru, hanya pelajar2 je yg lama. Haha!

Park keta kat BP Genting Kelang. Terus lompat ke dalam van hitam tu. Nak ke mane ye? Hmm..... Jalan Tuanku Abdul Razak la. Mak ai! Punya la ramai org. Nak jalan pun susah. Asyik accident org kat depan je. Nasib baik tak de org take advantage. Bulan pose la katakan. Fuh!

Jln punye jln dah dkt time buke pose. So last2 tak sempat beli makanan, beli air je. Nasib..... Hehe! Pas hilangkan dahaga barula beli fishball (bebola ikan le). Byk gak beli. Kitaorg picnic dlm van je, bkn kat tepi waterfall, tapi kat tepi jln raya. Hmm, sedap gak fishball2 tu. Peruk kosong la tu. Hehe.

Perut dah kenyang (actually tak la kenyang sgt, ade ruang lagi. Hehe!). Nak ke mane pulak ye. Mcm2 la cadangan. Last2, gi A&W kat PJ tu. Baru tau, jeng jeng jeng, ade org suke root beer float. Hehe! I lak, ape lagi, dah lama tak kena waffle ngan ais krim. Punya la sedap, sampai org kat depan pun tak dpt kawal diri. Hehe. Share2 stengah. Best kan?

Tak nak balik lagi ke? Dah larut malam dah. Hmm, jap lagi la, minum dulu. Tengah2 minum dan tengok skrin besar tu, dtg lak sorang lagi. Hmm, dah jadi parti. Hehe. Sembang2, gelak2, minum2, menguap2, ........ hah, ape lagi, balik tido la. Esok pagi ade klas lagi.......zzzzzzzzzzzzz

Setapak

Eight people this time, three generations. Lots of food and conversation. Location: in an apartment unit somewhere in Setapak, 12th floor. Time: 7:04pm.

Turned out easier than expected though there were some slight change of heart beat at the beginning. Stepped out still feeling blurry and slight headache. Overall, a wonderful experience.

Taman Tasik Perdana

Date: Thursday, 5th October 2006

Place: Taman Tasik Perdana, near Kelab diRaja, beside roundabaout and children's playground

Time: circa 6pm, buka puasa 7:04pm (tepung pelita, nasi campur with chicken and vege, fried meehoon, watermelon juice & sky juice)

Adjourned: 10:30pm

Topics: Various

Dimana Kan Ku Cari Ganti (Where Can I Find Another?)

Hendak ku nangis
Tiada berair mata
Hendak ku senyum
Tiada siapa nak teman
Kalaulah nasib
Sudah tersurat
Begini hebat
Apa nak buat

Di mana kan ku cari ganti
Serupa denganmu
Tak sanggup ku berpisah
Dan berhati patah
Hidup gelisah

Alangkah pedih rasa hati
Selama kau pergi
Tinggalku sendirian
Tiada berteman
Dalam kesepian

Dunia terang menjadi gelita
Cahaya indah tiada berguna
Keluhan hatiku
Menambah derita
Tetap kau jua
Tak kunjung jelma

Dimana kan ku cari ganti
Mungkinkah di syurga
Untuk kawan berduka
Menangis bersama
Selama-lama


(I want to cry
But I have no tears
I want to smile
But there is no company
If my fate
Has been determined
To be like this
What can I do

Where can I find another
Like you
I can't bear this parting
And heartbreak
Living in agony

My heart aches so much
Since you've been gone
Leaving me all alone
With no one
All alone

The bright world becomes dark
The beautiful light is useless
The weeping of my heart
Adds to my sorrow
But you still
Never appear

Where can I find another
Perhaps in heaven
To grief with me
To cry with me
Forever and ever)

Moving On

Used to sing this song back in Form 5 with a friend who was transferred to our school. She's from Subang Jaya. Used to coo over the whole album, right now, this song comes to mind:


We're on the road,
We move from place to place,
And oftentimes when I'm about to call it home,
We'd have to move along,
Life is a constant change...
The friends we know we meet along the way,
Too soon the times we share form part of yesterday,
'Cause life's a constant change,
And nothing stays the same, oh no.

Clouds that move across the skies,
Are changing form before our very eyes.

Why couldn't we keep time from movin' on?
Hold on to all the years before this moment's gone?
Why must we live the days at such a frightening pace?

We're all like clouds that move across the skies,
And changing form before our very eyes,

Have we outgrown our Peter Pans and wings?
We've simply grown too old for tales of knights and kings'
Cause life's a constant change,
And nothing stays the same, oh no...


"Constant Change". As fresh as ever, memories of yesteryears, decades, years ago. Even fresher, events, things that happened yesterday. People, places, have high impacts on small me. How do I ever forget and move on, like having amnesia? Download my brain contents into other forms? Is that ever possible? Live for that moment, wake up tomorrow and feeling like a child again. Possible?

Self Esteem

Happiness is... when someone whom you seldom see suddenly calls you and know you can be relied on

Happiness is... when you can offer a listening ear and a shoulder to cry on

Happiness is... when you can offer time to connect with someone

Happiness is... when you're able to save someone from leaving this world

Happiness is... when that someone calls you a few days later and thank you that everything is alright again


That was what I experienced last week. My self esteem soared high when I successfully brought him back to ground. Now, why did I relate that experience with self esteem? I'm not quite sure as I've limited knowledge in psychology. I see a connection there but not too sure how its connected.

You can't touch it, but it affects how you feel. You can't see it, but it's there when you look at yourself in the mirror. You can't hear it, but it's there every time you talk about yourself. What is this important but mysterious thing? Is that what's called self-esteem?

Ok, so I kind of know what self esteem is, but what's the connection here? Will blog about this when I get the answer or on the way to getting the answer. Any psychologist up for help?

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